mallory knox (Jennys-Abortion)
F / 27 yrs old.
member since: feb. 14, 2006
last online: jan. 6, 2009 @ 1:15 AM PST
posted
April 27, 2008 6:00 PM PDT
why am i still so consumed by him? i should just quit giving a fuck but i really can't. i can try to fuck the pain away all i want, but it is just not going to fucking work. all i ever think about is him, well except when i am getting boned by this guy, which is probably why i keep doing it. i wrote him and asked him if he was ok and got a crazy response. he isn't taking his meds and his bi-polar disorder is making him all crazy again. he is on this religious kick which is the main reason i suspect he broke up with me. when he isn't taking his meds he gets suicidal and starts talking crazy about demons and god. and that is kind of what is happening right now. he thinks i am evil because i don't believe in god and i made fun of jesus on easter. he told me he was going to try to kill himself but his dad put a lock on the shot gun. he says he is having an identity crisis. no fucking wonder you are having an identity crisis, you are a fucking deviant and you are trying to go to church and live your life for this fake ass god and that isn't you. you know it's not right, you know it's not real. you are just getting sucked in because of your parents and the place that you live. that isn't how you have ever lived, or wanted to live your life. you have way too much common sense to believe that shit. argh!! i wish i could say all this to him but i don't want to piss him off. i want him to be able to talk to me if he needs to because i worry so damn much about him. i have way too much fucking drama.
last updated April 27, 2008 6:10 PM PDT
posted
April 28, 2008 3:42 PM PDT
posted
April 28, 2008 10:17 AM PDT
He really doesn't sound like all that great of a guy. Are you sure it's him and not just the drama you crave?